Thursday, 14 June 2012

Stand Your Ground...

Well,
I was lucky enough to attend Stand Your Ground 1 course this Saturday afternoon gone.
I went because I had found that while I had got my body to a certain point, I felt like my mind and spirit were not exactly on the same page, and I needed to reconnect with my true self.
Absolutely LOVED the course. Terrifying, confronting, physical, and calming all at once.

My realisation was that I thought that losing my weight would lead me to mental freedom.....ahhh No!

What did I still feel stuck, heavy, sad? I had started to build a whole new prison of restrictions around myself that I thought I had removed in fat. I did achieve my robot mode at the gym, but my inner Rebel was starting to burr up and scream at me, "Ï don't want to do this anymore!!"...I wasnt listening until the TRUCK hit me. Not a real one, but it may as well have been. My niggling shoulder is now an out of action shoulder and my swimming and crossfit are now on hold.

Red Self Wraps by Vikki
So, what am I going to do? I am going to think more like my inner rebel. What does she want? Does she only want this because my social fascade self has told her this is how it is going to be?
I am trying to realise what truly makes me feel free and get more of that into my life.
I promise if it leads me to nude bungee jumping, no facebook pics for inspiration boards ;)

I am set to do Stand Your Ground 2 on Sunday. Looking forward to seeing that crazy red woman come out in me again. She is fun !!

Hugs Carly

Affirmation: All is well in my worldhttp://www.emazon.tv/emazon-private-training.html

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