My Battle..

Where did my self respect go? 

I went away from 12WBT again!! I stopped focusing on my eating and my exercise and went away...I gave up.

Why?! I don't even know this time, I moved house, I smashed my car, I got sad. These are all my excuses. Why am I letting these things hinder me?

I have mentally just wanted to start eating healthier, I start PT twice a week next week with a friend which I am very excited about. I know he will absolutely punish us so I need to have my eating in check because otherwise all that pain is for nothing.

I've also decided that maybe I will join Round 3... its like... bugging me that I have yet to complete a round and things are different now. So I feel I will be more successful, I have much more support I feel. 

You know what I need like a full on major chat session with someone who gets it haha but I think I am the only one who gets it because its me?

Anyways, I am re-joining, because I know with uni I need something to keep me heading in the right direction! I need to eat better, however I have JUST started dating someone who is good with his eating so that may encourage me and be a support to me I think.

Something happened to me when I turned 27. I got a tattoo, I basically told haters in my life to shove it...and I started living my life. I want to travel next year, I want to get married and have children one day. I even got private health insurance to get my root canal sorted haha. New Bex. It's time.

Love love,