Off season

It's the beginning of round three, and though I'm not in this round officially, I'm beginning to get my mind back to where it needs to be for my health to be on track. I hope you are too, whether or not you're officially in this round.

I've been thinking over the idea of the off season. In 12WBT world, it can mean anything from 'time to binge!' to 'I want to start next round on FIRE!' and so maybe that's what Michelle is up to in creating this pattern of rounds melting into rounds melting into rounds...

What about life, though? Does life have off seasons? Surely, it does.

You may have noticed my silence lately. I've been short on words, and low on moods. I haven't run since city2surf, but I do plan on slipping my runners on later today to help brighten my generally low moods. It's an off season of my life right now.

I'm waiting for a college to get back to me about a place.
Waiting for a church to give me a job.
Waiting for my birthday to pass so I can forget about it again.
Waiting, waiting, waiting.

And in the waiting, it somehow came about that I pressed pause on my health. When you press pause, everything tends to go backwards when it comes to health. Tough Mudder is less than a month away. This may sound strange, but I'm okay with going into it knowing that I'll struggle a lot. I'm okay with that because I know why and I'm okay with why.

This post was written whilst sipping a flat white and eating an English muffin at McDonalds. Irony, be my friend. 

But to be honest with you, I'm just tired lately. I'm tired and running out of reasons to smile.

It's an off season for me.
What about you?