Change and the Internal Struggle

Change... I desperately wish I could avoid it at all costs. I have been crying tonight. I am going through a lot of change at the moment (OK it sounds like I am being menopausal haha).

I am moving house, again. I have moved house a lot now, I have had numerous terrible rental/share house situations. I love the people I live with at the moment, however challenging it can be.. I do love them. They are like family to me. However, one of my housemates is just a little too mean to me, too often and it does effect my confidence in a negative way, I am going to be moving back to a house I have already lived in, I wish I could explain it to you guys in more detail but I don't think it will work, hmm I should try. I am moving to a house, where my brother already lives which is great because we have lived together before, however that was early last year and we moved our separate ways because our house was robbed, which is when I moved to the house I currently live in. Before I lived with my bro, I lived at the house that I am again, about to move into and it was a very bad experience for me, I lived with a very terrible housemate, I was very depressed, lived a very 'hermit-like' life. 

I hope all that made sense....

Initially, I was excited when the opportunity came about to live their again and especially living with my brother (he was the reason I said yes, family is so important), because I was unhappy in my current living situation (housemates gf moved in and she has made things much better).. but now I have been there, and the house is so cold and empty. There is furniture already there, but it just brings up memories I don't enjoy. The other thing.. my brother has a fly in, fly out job. So he will literally be there maybe a few days a month and it has taken me so long to feel comfortable after us being robbed, that I have taken a major step backwards. 


So, on the other hand, I will be paying the same, I will have more space and further away from take away food and I will see my family a bit more. Anyways, on top of all of this. I start uni next month, and I turn 27 which is kind of a scary age for me because I feel so unaccomplished and so alone and my scales don't seem to be accurate, my body measurements are still going well though so I am trying to stay positive. I think the scales may not be accurate because of the uneven floors in the bathroom.

All of this is in my head right this very second plus heaps more. I feel like I can't fit everything in, I can't focus on my body right now it's so exhausting. I haven't had time for facebook, to check how you guys are, I feel horrendous about that. I am definitely punishing myself at the moment, but I am hopeful things will improve. I just hope they do.

Thanks guys, if you guys can offer any advice that would be great. 

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