Body vs Brain

Now, if any of you are familiar with my endless struggles with my emotional eating and self hate etc through my weight loss journey you already know how much my brain and body are constantly on different teams. OH don't worry though, they change teams, they are just NEVER on the same one. 

So, usually my brain is a real b***** telling me I am no good, completely worthless etc etc but I have been taking proactive steps to train my brain and I think it is starting to work. It is really bad for me to hang all my hopes on a guy, and I won't but I have also been on a few dates with one guy, not sure how it will pan out but he makes me feel great and it is a good reminder for me. EDIT: He has just messaged me and told me "Bec, I don't like you. We don't have enough in common I think and  your body I don't like it.... you will be amazing if you lose at least another 30 kgs"

I weighed in on Wednesday, as you guys know I went away to a secret location for the weekend, my eating was maintained however exercise was not present at all. I lost 600grams this last week and I am really actually happy with that. I kept saying, I want more, I want more. But it accurately reflects the work I put in before and after my weekend away. So I am happy. I know what needed to be changed and yeah. 

HOWEVER, something happened, Wednesday was weigh in, that day at work was big and emotional and stressful, I didn't eat well on the Wednesday because I was away at a conference and I am a sucker for saving money and getting free food but I had still worked out hard in the morning and stuck to 'majority' salads. So after a massive day I was wrecked, Thursday morning....I slept through 4 alarms, that's right 4. (I have 4 because I have one for 5:00 and one for 5:05 and one for 6:30 and one for 6:35, I don't believe in the snooze button evidently.) The night before I had prepped, you know lay out all your gear in order so basically you only have to breathe in the morning and be ready. I wanted to exercise but clearly I was exhausted and my body needed rest which I could appreciate (I did really want to work out) but my eating yesterday was no good... I need to go to the gym, because I don't want to eat crap through the day and ruin what I have achieved. Today... a similar thing happened I couldn't sleep at all and I didn't wake up. I do however expect a less stressful day, I have packed all my healthy lunch and snacks. I have no excuses. 

It's just really annoying. I have decided I need to work on the following:

1. Change my alarm tone
2. Get to bed half hour earlier then what I am.
3. Be more organised in regards to shopping for food.  

That's it, I have been swamped of late, my doctor has suggested I go on stress leave but I just can't. I also decided I probably won't be going to Perth, sorry guys! I just always work the elections and its too much money for me to ignore, even though I am exhausted by the end of the day I just have to do it I think... plus I did just do something pretty bold yesterday... and I enrolled into uni by correspondence. You guys are looking at a student of Bachelor in Behavioral Studies (Psychology). I am really excited but also super nervous. It's a commitment for 6 years, but I am going to work for 5 and it starts in August. Eek!


Love ya guys, appreciate the time you take to read the blog. xo

Hot Tip: One cup of green tea per day is enough to help have more glowing skin! Thanks to the antioxidants in it, helps to get rid of all the bad stuff in your body.

P.S Check out Vikki's post about Dresses and Skirts, I love the analogy of the Coke and Pepsi Bottles, nice work Vik!